LIFE

Well for those of you who have tried to check out the blog the last few days, you noticed that I was shut down by Google. No need to get into specifics but I am happy to be back!

But the past few days have given me some time to think, some time to ponder and wrestle with life. And because of that, I want to veer off of my normal course for this blog and just give a little perspective.

Life…its interesting to put it mildly. Some days we really think we have it all planned out. We think we understand love…understand life…understand friendship. But then life happens, and it kicks us to the ground. It brings us to our knees without even making a sound. It doesn’t explain itself or apologize…it just happens.

And what we are left with is a handful of nothing; a handful of emptiness and brokenness. We realize that life wasn’t really all it was cracked up to be; and neither were we.

This past year has brought challenges beyond measure in my life. I have been broken to the point I thought I could be broke no more. Then when I would get back to my feet, I would be broken again, and again, and again. There have been moments when I thought that I could not, would not, and didn’t want to go on. I thought it would be better just to disappear.

But in those moments the miraculous happened. In those moments the wonderful came to be. God appeared with open arms. He held me tight and let me struggle, but never let go. He simply sat and waited when all I needed was something to hold onto and brought peace in times hopelessness.

The bible says that God understands and knows us intimately. I used to think that I understood this. But I was living a life of pleasure and a life of comfort. I did not know what it was like to truly be in need. I did not know what it was like to desperately be seeking for just a little stability. But in those times, in those moments when all seemed helpless, God was there and I know now will ALWAYS be there. He is real and is waiting for us to reach for Him so that He can lift us up and comfort us.

I thought I understood faith; until I had nothing left to depend on. I thought I understood love; until I was let down. I thought I understood friendship; until no one was around. I thought I understood submission; until I was asked to do things I did not enjoy. I thought I understood life; until I could only hope in the one who gave it to me. He is there to comfort us in our greatest need.

Why am I consumed with Christ? Because when He was all that I had left, He did not let me down. When He was all I could depend on, he was my rock. I want to be consumed with Christ because He has been consumed with me.

I know that many of you have gone through a lot this past year. Finances are gone, jobs lost, friends lost, children rebelling...but God is there. Reach out to Him and He can be your hope and your help. He is there to guide you and to keep you safe. Trust in Him and He will not let you down!