No Compromise

I have been through possibly the most difficult trial of my life over the past month. Many of you know what I have been going through, some do not. But let me tell you that I could not have made it through this trial without the grace of God.

For the past year and a half, the Lord has been challenging me to understand what it means to be totally dependant upon Him. Believe me...I have only tapped the surface of what it means. But I have an intense desire to understand it and live it. I have pushed and pushed myself to get rid of the pillars that hold me up...those that have nothing to do with God. It has been a ride of a lifetime. God has been there every step of the way though.

One of the things that has become so apparent to me is that there must not be compromise. We must not believe that because we are going through a difficult time that it gives us the "freedom" to sin. I have found myself several times through this trial acting out in ways that I would not if I wasn't being squeezed. I can be honest and say that things that were inside have come out in a new way. My goal is to capture these attitudes and bring them before the Lord, allowing Him to rid me of their hold. Bitterness...anger...depression...hurt...all bringing out the worse in me.

During times like this we realize what we have to hold on to. I have a God so big that no matter where I am at...He is there. No matter how late it is...he is still awake ready to listen. No matter how weak I am...He is there to hold me. No matter how sad I get...He is there to comfort me. And most important, no matter what I feel...He has felt it and understands my pain. In all things He MUST be my comfort, my guide, my strength, my all.

We MUST NOT COMPROMISE our faith even when life seems impossible. This is when the temptations roll at us relentlessly. The devil desires to devour us especially when we are at our weakest. As we hold on to God though, the devils weapons prove worthless...his deceptions fill deaf ears...his desires no longer impact us...and we live in a glorious union with the only one who can save us and make us all we were created to be.